Flowers In Your Hair

Yesterday I did something unexpected.

I went to Sungai Petani to interview a 2013 Starstrucker at SMJK Sin Min for The StarEducate pullout. The immediate thought that came to mind when I was contacted to do so was “no” because despite how much I enjoyed my journalism stint at Menara Star in December 2011, it was something I’ve never done before alone. Way out of my comfort zone. But in the end I went anyway, and to be honest, I quite enjoyed myself! I mean, receiving stares and whispers (“I’m going to be in the newspaper!”) everywhere I go definitely put me in the proper journalist mood, plus, my interviewee, Sabrina, was extremely lovely and lovely people are always amazing. The teachers were helpful and supportive and the overall atmosphere filled myself with extreme nostalgia for high school. Passing by classes and hearing the words “optical lenses” and “light rays”, looking at the digital board next to the staff room counting down the days to PMR and SPM, watching students in uniforms holding books and carrying bags; it felt very weird to be an outsider to this kind of stuff especially since I’ve only left school for three months.

Speaking of leaving school, I recently made a vlog concerning my thoughts about the future (and why I’m scared of it):

TL;DW: I’m afraid of becoming someone whom I don’t want to be, and of making the wrong decisions that will affect myself later in life, and of leaving home and depending on myself and just growing up.