Mood Swings

See, I just came back from Tweens camp on Saturday and man, was I disrupted. I totally loved the camp. When I came home, it was already 8pm. And when I went into my house, I felt soooo uneasy and uncomfortable. But, of course, you would, right? Cuz you’re still unable to adapt to sudden new surroundings. I wanted to stay at SU forever and never come home, but of course, that is ultimately impossible. Duh. SU has been like a heaven to me.

At camp, I didn’t eat much, cuz I kinda lost my appetite. I felt hungry, but I didn’t want to eat. It’s that weird feeling. So when I came home, I couldn’t eat either. Everytime I put something into my mouth, I would puke it out. It was that terrible. So I just drank a mug of hot Milo, and that I nearly vomitted too.

I slept early that night, even though I didn’t want to. I mean, Harry Potter is on tv! And I’m missing it! Nevertheless, my eyelids closed with a soft ‘thud’ as soon as I lied on my bed.

The next day, I found out that I lost 2kg. I didn’t know if I was happy or sad, because before I went to camp, my mind was set on lose weight! Lose weight! but I failed and now I have succeeded. The negative part was my fear of anorexia, because I really couldn’t eat anything. Really.

Plus, as soon as I opened my eyes the next morning, my tears came spilling out of its sockets. It was terrible. I missed the camp so much. So, when I went down to eat breakfast, my dad was there, waiting, so I took a piece of cake and went outside to eat while my tears came splashing down. (I’m a crybaby, I know.) But I couldn’t eat the cake. I really couldn’t. In the end, I forced it all down no matter what and when to work. (summer job, ha.)

At the shop, I told the boss (which is, of course, my MUM) that I felt like puking, so she gave me plumballs to swallow. And I was like, what? I can’t even eat, and you’re telling me to swallow pills? But I had to, anyway, and chewed them into little pieces before swallowing them. (FYI, it tasted HORRIBLE.)

Lunch. I couldn’t eat. Again. I tried to rev up my appetite by choosing a big plate of rice with veg and fish. Then I sat down and picked my fork and- I couldn’t eat. I just couldn’t. So, my parents consoled me into eating just the veg. And that I didn’t even finish. So I went to King’s and bought bread to eat at home.

At home, I still couldn’t insert the bread into my mouth. But then, my favourite tv show was on and I finished the bread without realising it. After that, I onlined for 8 hours. And I found my appetite again. Yay!

Right, this is dumb I know, but I’m a dumb person. 😉

MORAL: Online helps to save you from starvation and anorexia and gastric.

OMG, I’m going to be fat again. DIETING PLAN: failure.

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Michelle Teoh

26-year-old cynical Asian, book enthusiast and purveyor of fine sarcasm.

5 thoughts on “Mood Swings”

  1. Hi Michelle,
    I m sorry to hear you have the eating problem after camp. Has this happened before?
    Wished i had more time to chat with you at the camp. You were so quiet and shy and I think i hardly heard a word from you. I could remembered your sweet smiles only at most times in response to my questions.
    Your not being able to eat for a few days is a great concern.
    Do write me to thru my personal email if you have anything to share or talk about.
    Keep up your love for writing in this blog. You have the gift and talent!.

  2. hi aunty khim…
    it’s nothing, really, that i couldn’t consume anything when i came back from camp. i’m fine now, in fact, i think i’m starting to gain weight..;)
    and yeah, i AM a shy person, but ‘quiet’ would be an understatement. i can get rowdy sometimes. 😉
    thanks for your praises, i really appreciate it. keep in touch, take care. 🙂

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