You know all those add-on programmes you install to your Firefox or Chrome or whatever Internet browser you seem fit to use? I am just like that, but the human version.
It’s like having everyone focus on the laptop screen, and everyone goes, “Wow, Google Chrome is the shit!” or “Firefox is the best browser since Internet Explorer!” and no one notices anything else. It’s like snapping a photo of three people, but people only notice two of them in the centre, because the third one isn’t important, she is just an add-on, a spare, just like how Voldemort screamed, “Kill the spare!” before Pettigrew blew Cedric Diggory to pieces, nothing worth paying attention to. She is there when you are desperate and needs a hand, but otherwise she is just dust and shadows, a furniture or wallpaper that you overlook everytime. When you see two people walking towards you but you just look at one of them, because the other one is useless and worthless, like a dead remote controller compared to the latest Apple technology and yes of course you want to use the iControl or whatever they’re going to call it. Or when you are surrounded by people and when one of them pipes up and suggests something but everyone pretends to not hear the spare and continue with whatever they were saying before the piping up. So naturally, the add-on stands alone and abandoned.
Do I have a problem with that? No, I do not have a problem with that, who said I had a problem with that? I am perfectly fine with being the background music, the floorboards, the ceiling tiles, the wall posters… Hey, whatever makes the people around me happy right? I have no right to think that I am far superior above others.
michelle teoh 
hi michelle,
i get what u mean,especially the part when a person is talking to a group of three and focuses only on the other two, and the ‘spare’ is left out. yeah, i’ve been there countless of times and i do feel frustrated. but i’ve figured out it’s not because i’m unimportant but it’s because i don’t join in the conversation, because i’m too shy or i don’t seem to look keen on listening and what not. yeah, so what i’m trying to say is, u shouldn’t be okay with it, try being part of whatever it is u want to be a part of. sorry if if i’m confusing u.
The thing is, I do want to be a part of whatever it is I want to be a part of at that moment. I am shy, but that doesn’t mean I’m not interested in it, I just lack social skills and fail to speak up at the right moments. Maybe they misinterpret my silence as ignorance, so they exclude me from their conversation, plans etc. Maybe it’s that, yeah. Maybe it’s only normal they ignore me that way, but that doesn’t mean I like it. I’m just being annoying I’m sorry but thank you.
trust me, i’ve been in your shoes.Just so you know,i love reading your posts because sometimes i find what you share here is the same with what i’m going through. it’s a cool blog!
Thank you, that means a lot. (: Although most of the time I’m just crapping and moaning in my posts, haha.