Until college life officially starts for me in Sunway College at PJ. If you ask me how I feel about this sudden change in my life -and let’s face it, that’s the only important question, is it not- I won’t be able to give you a definite answer. I feel scared, excited, worried and adventurous all at the same time. Scared because this is my first time being away from home for more than a month without my parents and excited because this is a whole new life!!! But I hate change. I’m a creature of habit, who’s comfortable with routines. There’s always this part of me that wants nothing to do with new, that makes me think I’m perfectly fine with my old, comfortable, stagnant life, but I know that could never stay that way forever. Amanda told me once, “don’t be afraid of change”, and I think that’s right. Change is inevitable, and it could sometimes be a good thing, although I might not see it yet. There’s also a part of me that thinks it’s okay to be scared…right? Because I’ll be out of my comfort zone and all that.
Aunty Amelia also once said that I was the kind of person who was afraid to take the first step but once I did, I’d be okay, and I think that’s true, too. The same thing happened with my UK trip last month. As reluctant as I was to go in the first place (and I was really, really reluctant) I came home missing the UK so much. I just need that initial five seconds or 24 hours of courage until I can be okay with a certain situation. And that’s what I’m thinking about my first step into college.
I won’t exactly be alone as I’m hoping to share an apartment with Yi Jing and Rumin but hey, when life gives you lemons, right? Gotta make lemon sherbet or some shiz.
I’m also bringing a hella lot of things I’m practically moving my whole room there. Adaptations, yeah?
THIS IS A WHOLE NEW THING FOR ME WISH ME LUCK GUYS
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michelle teoh 