So this morning I woke up feeling pretty shite.
My stomach started churning and after changing into my long-time-no-see uniform, I went down and could only stuff in a mini doughnut and even that threatened to make its appearance at all times. And then it was a matter of waiting for my dad to come home from the hospital. Of course, Aunty Wendy and the rest of my relatives were pretty convinced I would do well because well let’s face it that’s what everyone expects from me. The thing is, the more encouragement I get the more nervous I become.
When I got to school pretty much everyone was already there and I found a place to sit at the very front next to Hanum. I think I arrived at the perfect time because just a few minutes after that, the headmistress came onto the stage and said that she will only call out the names of those who got 8As and they’ll have to go up the stage and get their own result slips so you know cold sweat was accumulating and I felt sick but not as sick as I did after the Headmistress called out “Low Jia Huan” because I’m the next name on the list and the moment she mentioned “Mi-” my heart sagged to the bottom in relief and dear God the relief of not letting down or disappointing anyone was overwhelming.
And then we went out to get some pictures and this dude took a picture of me, Hoi Chin & Mak Teh and he says he works for The Star so you can look out for our picture in the paper tomorrow.
Congrats to all of you who got what you expected. And to those who didn’t, don’t worry, it’s just a little shit, PMR that is. It’s not important. It’s not your death date. You haven’t lost, and neither is everything else. You still have a bright future ahead, don’t let this stop you from doing your best. The disappointment only lasts for a while, everything will be forgotten eventually, and the trick is not giving a hoot and just be the true and genuine individual you are. You are all bloody amazing, never forget that.
I suck at consoling, but that’s about the most “inspirational speech” I can come up with to remind that all of you are winners in this grueling world.
All in all, today is a great day, and I’m going to Penang tomorrow so I’ll be asking for this and that, left and right.